Safe Space

Safe space

Can I tell it out. Sure will but Lemme start here to myself… Open up my thoughts to myself Read them back to myself Yes .. I m hearing it louder Feeling it cut deeper especially At this point of the year my pain became reality Deeply engraved I felt you tear away from me And when people said tears burn … I could now attest to that. I want to run run from it so much And that why it’s unsettling when someone finds me I now have to unpack pain. That shouldn’t be the case I should warm up And relax because I’m home But no. I want new again, the thrill and dear it brings to live again unfamiliar and make yourself a new That helped forget the pain Now the season is here again I feel tears fighting to pour out, I want to scream because It heavy in my shoulders and heart So many words unsaid I don’t want to ever wait or take it slow any more Because time is indefinite I’m brave….I want to believe I am because I will say it out how much I love love and will show love So yes, It’s delulu to be this much but it’s what I have now 😭 I waited , tried to save, and I lost even after following the instructions and being considerate So this time, I’m all In for everything small or big I’m commiting a hundred percent. And I will enjoy it all, cry through it all But most of all Stay grateful.